What does our spirit look like?
And how does it relate to the rest of the universe, evolution and reincarnation?
I have held a question for a very long time that is, what is the physiology of our spirits, and how does that relate to
all things. It is a very big question because it's like asking how biology works with quantum theory or building a man up
from his quantum physics just to make his pinky finger, and then relate it to influencing forces from time, existence, cause
to astronomical. Y'know, people have done allot of that already, from the sciences to the Kabala. Infact, science would become
allot more interesting if it got out of its android head and recognized the soul within the human condition.
Not everyone in the sciences or psychology were or have been so dislocated and dispondant of the soul of the human condition
and its relationship to all else. Many of the inspirations of the inventors and idealists towards technology and science brought
dreams they had into manifestation. Einstein himself was a Kabalist. The mathematician, Rene Descartes, had a dream one night
that we would know as algebra. In the time of my madness, when I was playing with all the words, I can see how he could dream
That was always one of my biggest problems in school. Besides teachers who did not have much interest in teaching because
I was in resources anyway since the second grade and not really expected to 'learn' much or get anywhere near becoming a productive
member of society, I was given things on the chalk board or in the books and taught with 'programing' it into my head. This
was this and this and then there's that, but nobody could tell me why. Without 'why' I had allot of problems with 'how' and
this is often how allot of spirituality tries to teach other people. They start right in the middle, assuming the basics have
already been covered somewhere and you know what is being talked about.
So here's how I played with math into my understanding, which kind of went wild in my madness
1+1=2, why? Because you have an apple and an apple and they make two apples. Why? Because they are both singular and when
you combine them or divide one they make a half: 1/2. 2+2=4, why? Because two apples and two apples makes four apples. Why?
Because they are dual, two halves, and if you combine them or divide one yet again you make another whole with directions
and a circumference. 4+4=8, why? Because they are two wholes and if you combine them you make a cosmic path. 8+8=16>7,
why? Because if you combine two cosmic paths, greater than will always be the larger side of > and less than will always
be pointed to < and numbers can be simplified into their lesser than: 1+6=7 . It goes on, so 'how' do you get to ...?
0 - whole: The void takes shape
1 - singularity: The whole gives birth
2 - halves:
The one was beside itself and divided into the dual
3 - created: They were fruitful and gave birth
- wholes: They were beside themselves and began to become creative
5 - awareness: They
were fruitful and made material things
6 - sexuality: They were beside themselves and made a second tribe
- directions: They were fruitful and began to line the paths
8 - cosmic paths: They
were beside themselves and walked between two worlds
9 - aspirations: They were fruitful and became religious
- completion: They were beside themselves and returned to the whole with all their components
When I was little I learned to count by telling stories with my numbers and gave them points along their way so I could
stop counting my fingers and making line marks all over my paper and this kind of elaborated into numerology while I was trying
to learn math up to pre-algebra. Then it went really wild in my madness with all kinds of stories and configurations. I still
don't know what I was doing exactly but it was the same thing with everything else, making alignments out of a screwed up
filing cabinet. It went on into shapes but making a whole out of all the shapes I had gathered kind of scampered away while
I was trying to find the right ... Eli Khimlar in it.
My voices had turned bad while I was still doing it and started telling me to drop it because I was mixing the sacred shapes
hidden over the earth and this was apparently what people could end up discovering to make a portal into heavens or hells
and were some kind of fundamental to the gateway of the star circles as well. Basically though, there is a specific pattern
to the combining of the sacred shapes in a correct alignment, but these many shapes are scattered over the earth to specific
keepings where almost each of them tell of never mixing. However, if these keepers came together and aligned the keepings
to a singular destination - if they put the shapes down together in the right order, at the right time, in the right way - they
would come to opening an ancient gate. Gate(s) with these shapes that were divided up and scattered off to the keepers
in the very beginning of creation. It was like a key to a door and all these shapes put together made the shape of the door
and the keyhole but is a most astronomical puzzle as well, like Hellraiser's rubix cube.
Not only does it implement opening the gates of hell and letting the 'Satan' out, I was told by my voices and such it could
also be like a beam shafting down to the earth from this higher thing. From Spider Keeper, the 8's. and with it open Spider
Keeper could shimmy down the shaft of light into the great lodge of all the people. Spider Keeper represented the cosmic universe. It
implies all sorts of things from aliens with landing pads to dimensional portals and cosmic paths. The only problem is I don't
know which one.
There is a great puzzle and if the wrong door is unlocked or the key turned in the wrong direction like Matrix II with
the key maker there, the underworld could come up like stories I've been told from some of my x-satanist friends
about conjuring up devils, or like the stories of how the faeries concored the darker ones and drove them into the belly of
There is a story I'd like to tell one day about these keepers. It's a fantasy story but like the folktales there is a basis
of truth. They have keepers and each specific keeper has a device that is also an instrument that makes a tone. When
they get together at a specific time and place and begin the tones with the devices these creatures who stir up from this
underworld at this time follow a path to a new place to make a new den. Without the keepers they would pestilence over their
world and drive everything near extinction. This keeping was given to them by a great mystical being that looks like
a praying mantis who didn't want these things to devour the whole world.
The only greatest example I can really give is that animation movie: Titan E, when the boy becomes the key to shaft the
light from the machine of the shapes and this wakes up the titan. I was Mushroom when I saw this movie and I kept calling
it Tai'ny. It was awesome. I ought to see it again now that I'm back to myself just to wonder what it was I saw there exactly
besides the wonderful, wonderful colors. But in the example there with the boy, it was like seeing what I was trying to figure
being played out. This is why to steal from keepers is dangerous, to go into anything half cocked and ignorant of what you
are learning could get you into trouble. This is why you learn anything before you try to go around making something. All
the people who use witchcrafts know about the energies they are dealing with and that many of these have prices their practitioners
must pay. While what I was going through wasn't witchcraft the fundamentals were there in the shapes about the ones who use
thier circles to conjure.
There are these star circles over the earth like a crystal shard with a light inside of it. If the keepers gathered with
the shapes like they combine to make a key, everyone would see these great points and things, like Spider Keepr could come
and go from them. If you turned the key the wrong direction in the whirling wind, like the difference between the Navajo
symbol for the whirling logs of creation and the Nazi shwastica which turns its winds backwards from creation, then the
dark side of the cosmic path would jump out, like a 9/11. I have no reference for this stuff, it's from my crazy time when
I was playing with the numbers, words and shapes but maybe someone out there knows what I'm talking about. If there is, I'll
try to make better sense of it.